The one to blame

THE ONE TO BLAME
By: Mell
Leon, S. Kennedy x Ada

EPILOGUE
"Maybe it wasn't her fault after all, maybe it is just me who wants to keep it this way."
Sometimes we have no time to even think of what we feel, not in this messed up world  where there's no place to think on the little things that surrounds us. Some may think it is easy to carry on a normal life, well it is not... Going on and on in missions where our life is just a thing we can give up to make life possible for the rest of the world, watching how entire groups of citizens, friends, and even family die with only you being the one able to escape with life. I thought a part of me had died when I was just a rookie, when my life changed... when I met her.
I escaped and defeated death but I didn't win, she had disappeared as fast as she entered in my life. Holding her steady body into my arms, feeling her life vanishing from her body... but there was no time, not even to stay by her side until her last minute. Being as strong as I have never been before I just walked away and left her... I left her, as I left my past life. There wasn't such thing as a normal life ever since.
Not everything was bad either, I met people who became close friends. A woman searching for her lost brother gave her best to find him and managed to escape alive. A little girl who was determined to survive even though most of the city had already died, that is impressive... and what about me? I trusted a woman whom I barely knew, a woman whose life was a total secret for me, and also the one who was going to stay in heart for ever. I fell in love...
Years passed by and my life didn't change, I tried to take care of Sherry when Claire left to search for his brother into Paris but the government took her into custody soon after we escaped from the devastated city. I turned into a special agent since I knew too much about the incident back in 1998. Apparently it was easier for them to have me under surveillance and at their service. Bedford was the one who recruited me to his newly developed special division, somehow we became friends and I convinced him that the country and the world needed for government protection against bio terrorism. After this I was continuously sent into secret operations and missions, the first one appeared in 2002 in which I traveled to South America. Soon after I was assigned to guard the newly elected President's Graham family and his daughter Ashley was kidnapped. Without knowing the fate that awaited I traveled to Spain, where I found more than I could ever imagined. Everything was different but so similar at the same time, there were odds to fight against but the most important thing for me is that she was there too. What was she doing there? I knew she was alive since I heard off rumors about her working for whom I was fighting against. But it did not make any difference, it was so confusing... I wondered why she never searched for me, even though I had no right to have this feeling. I know I left her there not even knowing she was still alive, but what else could I ask her for? She gave her life for me as I did for her, six years passed by and she continued with her life as I did. Maybe it was for the best though, I promised her and myself that it was not going to end up like that and Umbrella had to pay for taking her from me... Now I find myself here, 15 years later. I have been into nearly 7 operations ever since Raccoon City, I have saved people, or at least tried to.  Everyone but myself.